Sunday, September 16, 2012

The Impossible Truth

It was a warm Saturday night. Nick as usual had just finished watching a lovey dovey movie on his laptop. Well that was his norm since he had moved to a new city.
No new friends yet and doesn't seem likely to make any either as he was busy as hell to struggle for a new job.
But he always had time for his guitar and his memories since that was all that was left since he moved here.

The ringing mobile brings Nick out from the movie aftermath.
It was from UK.

"My lovely Nick, You always been my sweetheart, you again helped me get me doing the right thing. I finally fell in love with the guy out here."
She said this because couple of days ago she had mentioned about a guy who was stalking/proposing/persuading her and she always turned to Nick for advice and Nick as always believed that there was love in everyone to be discovered and wanted to prove it to her and proved he did. She finally appreciated a positives of a guy.
Nick with a wry smile on his face "Well finally the love bug has finally bitten you."
"How I wish you were here to meet us. I will keep you posted. Bye Nickyyy" she hung up the call.

Looking out of the window, the night had suddenly become breezy and cool and that took him back to his memories.


"I wanted to tell you first before you know it from someone else." she said as Nick picked up her call.
"As you know, it s been so many days I have been blabbering about this." her voice ever excited.
" I am finally going onsite to UK." she quipped and asked Nick to join her and our group for the party in the evening.

Nick was part happy for her trip and part sad that she will be leaving in a week s time.
He looked outside the glass window of his office. It was slightly drizzling with the evening sun hidden in clouds and had got romantically dark.

He walked back to his cubicle to complete his work and get ready for the evening party.
"Dude!!! So whats the plan." a ping from Peter jumps up on Nick's screen.
"What plan?" Nick replies.
"I know she might have already told you, but we should be getting her something."
"You re right , but i really can't think of anything." Nick with a sigh smiley on the chat.
"Lets meet in an hour and then decide" Peter closes his conversation.

Nick knew its going to get hard. He calls her up. "Can we meet now."
"She says OK." and asks Nick to come to the cafeteria of the office.
Working in the same office and enjoying the meal with each other was their highlight of the day which was going to be ruined.

"Thank god, you met me." she welcomed Nick to the cafeteria.
"I really wanted to tell you something." she said as she ordered for two sandwiches.
Nick wondering, is it what he always wanted to hear that how much she liked him for being the best guy she always wanted to be with.
"I really don't understand Peter, whats wrong with him." she said with an annoying face.
"What did he do?" Nick queried.
"He proposed me and said he liked me a lot" she replied.
Nick was confused, Peter never mentioned it to him and now why was she confiding in him.
"So what did you say to him" Nick asked with a purpose.
"I said, you have always been my friend and I never will have feelings for you." she said bringing a small relief to Nick's apprehensions.
Nick in a teasing manner asked her " What s wrong in Peter asking you out? "
"Oh, cmon he 's just like you for me not more than a friend, Even though I like you more since I trust you more" . These words acted like a knife being dug into Nick's heart.

He knew, he had jumped into liking a gal so early after his recent break up.
But he mentally reasoned as she used to hang out with him all the time, laughed on all the jokes and always had her by his side for anything.

"Love is something which I will never fall in. Since I don't believe in it." she stated.
"Why can't a boy and girl be just friends like you and me." she asked.

The alarm shook him out of his memories. It was late even for bed as dawn was coming but it did not deter him to strum the song she always wanted to hear him sing but he never did when she was around.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IrZgggriaw

tum ho toh gaata hai dil, tum nahi toh geet kahatum ho toh hai sab haasil, tum nahi toh kya hai yahatum ho toh hai sapano ke jaisa hasin ik samajo tum ho toh, yeh lagata hai, ke mil gayi har khushijo tum na ho, yeh lagata hai, ke har khushi me hai kamitum ko hai maangati....... yeh jindagi.........
tum hi toh raahein bhi hai, tum nahi toh raste kahaan
tum ho toh yahaan sab hi hai, tum nahi toh kaun yahaan
tum ho toh hai har ek pal meherbaan yeh jahaan
jo tum ho toh hawa mein bhi mohabbaton ka rang hai
jo tum na ho toh phir koyi na josh na umang hai
tum mile toh mili yeh jindagi.............

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Last Goodbye

Nick was the dynamic guy that you always find in a city bred environment.
Sitting on the bed staring at the guitar, thinking and looking back on his life...
Today being her birthday...
First time in so many years he hasn't wished her...

"Sometimes i feel i need a time machine go back in time and change things to make a better today.
But i guess if everything in life was perfect we wouldn't cherish the good moments.
What if I had said Ye i would like to keep meeting even if it didn't work out :)
Today I might still be with her"

3 years ago.... few months before her birthday...
"I still love you!!"...
The expression on her face changed from being sad to being guilty...as Nick uttered those words.
Nick couldn't bear to see her face like that... he wanted that smile back on her face for which he would die for
But even more unbearable was the fact that this might be the last time he might see that heart stopping smile of hers...
She did not say a word was just looking away ...
Nick pondered " Is it possible for you "
She retorted " Why can't we continue like this .... I don't wanna lose you as a friend"
Nick with his heart in pain asked the question he needed an answer to for almost 2 and half years " Did you ever love me?"
She looked at him . His eyes moist but waiting for an answer this time.
The golden sunshine from the setting sun hitting her face and the breeze which was cooler than usual in an April summer might have made her eyes glistened but then she looked down and said " I don't know Nick . Love is a strong feeling and I have always had and have feelings for you. But then it is not possible"
"Can't you even try" Nick tried to convince her.
"I am sorry Nick"

Nick looked away trying to control the pain and his heart was full of it.
He took out the box containing a beautiful necklace not as beautiful as her which he had bought for her while he was away from her ...
Gave it to her... saying.. "This is one of the last things i would like to give"
She opened it and had a look which said Why are you making this hard for me.

She pleaded "We can still meet"
Nick looked her in the eye "I can never be friends with you. You will always be the best i ever had and can never think of you as a friend"
She replied "You will always be a special person in my life . I can never feel for anyone the way i felt for you."
Nick saw the conviction in her eyes which made it difficult for him to forget her.

Just before boarding the subway Nick looked back for one last time at her ,she was almost in tears... He smiled and she smiled back.....
He touched that lovely dimple which appeared whenever she smiled and said "Keep smiling always because its this dimple on which I am alive "

The subway train arrived and Nick boarded with the heaviest of heart and looked back at the crowd where she was standing and said to her "Hope to see you happy"

The cellphone rang with a message tone bringing Nick out of the memory
The message was a forward from his friend which read "Sometimes we maintain silence to protect one beautiful relation..... But too much silence may create a distance in every beautiful relation!"

He took the guitar and played the song with moist eyes 'Teri Yaadein -by Unknown (LoveStory Sab TV series)

Teri yaadein, mulakaatein, wo raatein aur baatein
Teri saansein, wo baahein, ab mujhko yaad aaye
Tere bina mera jiya, sataayein kyun piya
Yaadon ne teri mujhpe, ye jaadu kiya re
Teri saansein, wo baahein, ab mujhko yaad aaye
Wo adaaon ki ghatayen, mere dil ko chhu jaayen
Pyari hai duniya saari, maine hai tujhpe waari
Dil mein, mere dil ne tujhse, yaari ki baazi hari
Tere khayalon mein, khayalon mein…
Bas tum meri nigaahon mein, nigaahon mein…
Bas tum wapas aa jao, mere paas, tum sadaa, wapas aa jao
Mere paas, tum sadaa… suna mera jahan, bhoola main hu kahan
Jaane hai jaane jaan, tera rahoon, Piya…(piyaa)…
Wapas aa jao, mere paas, tum sadaa, wapas aa jao
Mere paas, tum sadaa… piya tera jiya… (piya tera jiya)
Piya tera jiya… (piya tera jiya)… tu hai kahan
Tera karuun intezaar, tu mere dil ka karaar
Itna hai aetbaar, manoonga na main bhi haar